Today was a hard day. I am a person who is flourishes because of structure. Take me to a place that is unstructured, and well. You know the rest. This day was especially difficult because I found myself juggling many things while trying to teach my students how to do this and how to do that. My patience was tried and my joy was being sapped from me, minute by minute. At one point in the day I remember leaving the classroom to simply step outside and say a prayer. Even still, it didn’t let up.The juggling act continued. The patience continued to be tried. Soon enough, the dismissal bell rang as my students shuffled out of the classroom. Those sweet six and seven year olds left and I was left with feelings of tiredness. I can only imagine what they left with.
The lack of structure continued even through this afternoon’s dismissal procedure: car duty. In order to organize our car riders, we have painted colored squares on the ground for students to stand and wait while their car pulls up to the called color. I normally stand on the green square. Today, we were missing teachers to help with car duty, so I moved down to the red square. (See? The unstructured/unplanned events were my theme for today ;))
As kids who knew me on the green square came to stand on the red square, they simply exclaimed, “HEY! You’re supposed to be on the green square! Why are you here on the red square??”
Granted, at this point, I had exhausted all energy and was barely hanging on empty. I’m not entirely sure if I even gave a response! But God.
In Christianity, God calls us from our sin into His grace. He doesn’t want us to stay stuck in one place because of our sin. I had stood on that green square for the last year and a half without missing a beat. Today, as I stood on the red square, I recognized that God wants to take His children to a deeper love and affection for Him, while recognizing His deep love and affection for us. How incredible is that!
sometimes and all the time, satan will attempt to take the Christian down by taunting and shouting, “HEY! You’re supposed to be the person you were! Who do you think you are?”
And to that, we can firmly and faithfully respond with the message of the Gospel.
As I was reflecting on a few things today, I gathered up the fact that the older I get, the more I am seeing God’s hand intertwined into all the pieces of my life. And, it is such a beautiful and awe-inspiring journey. If we open our eyes and put on the lens God has for us, we’ll be delightfully surprised, even in the unstructured chaos and physical tiredness.
And, how fitting that I stood on the red square.
Until next time!